i can't stop loving you

2009-11-05T03:24:00.000-08:00

listen to the music. i hate when you ignoring me. hmphh.. yeahh. i know you don't have time for me. but atleast contact me while you are out. i miss you. norhalizah,do hear me ohh.. i just feel depress right now... where are you when i need you? hmph. only god know this. hope one day you feel what i felt. (: damnly not in mood. arghh! why today is so badddddddddddddddd? ea msg aku katanya 'sabar b!!!!!' WTH? am i what?? bukan kan selfish.. but see it through me wahh.. who i am to you kan? huh..... yes aku sabar sudah. just atleast kau atuu contact aku wah..
macam berapa jam ku tunggu msg mu?? daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...... mun ganya kauuuuuu~ nyah.. lw ku nada pandai mencari.. macam apa kann. okay lahh... dipahami tah udah tuu.. layan saja kawan mu. yes aku tau aku jahat waahh. baiklah (: thanks for everything. sudah kau dapat aku,kau buang aku.. cehhhh.. mcm lagu tah pulang~ hahha! stfu!

2009-11-01T07:33:00.000-08:00

remembering a days that i ever wrote it on the other site,i do care about anything. i get stuck when i had read it all.it sucks mahnn.. it hurts.. why ? og! i hate you.. damn much! back off dear~

2009-06-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

at wywy,i miss her so badly.but why she kinda busy all the time.i really miss her and satu g.i don't even feel bored wen im with you.i miss you. i ate lemon chicken with rice and drink fresh orange juice.the thing that i can't missed are lemon chicken that remind me to her.i miss her imiss her i miss her.yeaaa.. jangan majal.. haha!!adi ku si alai yg masih berumur 8 bulan anee ohh.. gauk dah yaa.. damit jua masih tuuu..huhu~gtg.. angkat tpun :D

2009-06-04T17:38:00.000-07:00

a veryy goodmorning to youuu~ huhu~ here i just open my blogger. lama sudah nda blogging sal aku busy. hoho! sorry it was new again. awal banar ku bangun arine..hmph! ari jumat. aku mental wa ne banar nya sal nya aku baru realize yg dmalam ada urg kenalan nya msg ea btanya kan kabar and bhapa.. pfft!:/ is this wat we called 'loyal'? yg ea bagi number nya pat kenalan nya napa? damn ehh! aku pun dapat buat waa. jangan sekadar ex ku msg aku 'imy' ea basar2kan hal ane. nda jua ku melayan x ex ku atuuu.nda payah tah dbasar2kan. kan stress sal apa jua? dapat jua x dselasai kan miana kahhh,ane.. hehh. urg kenalan dbagi nya saja num tpun atuuu. sapasapa pun mental tuu ehh. babii banar. yatah pagi anee aku btanya napa? then reason nya 'si edah saja tau cerita nya tuu' jadi nya aku nda bleh tau lahh cerita sal ea ne? nda papa.. :) i still can stand waaaaa.. hmph! i miss you btw.

2009-05-03T04:48:00.000-07:00

ehhhhh.. balik2 jua gambar aneee? hahaha! nda apaa... lawa bahh bagii ku sal smoke in the zone :D

ini katx.. dgn ku bgmbar dbawahhh ohhh :D cuzen dakat ne.. she's good,briliant,mature,respect and kuat bkurapak. hahahaha..

ako dan cuzen ku si katx!! posing kan? and yeahh gambar nya terjejas oleh asap rokok.sal camera man kami bcgupp bahhh..

adik dan sepupu sayaaa.. esehh~~ hahaah.. peace ka tuuu?

abang angkat saya.. si dave! dia sodahhh hengg nda g sadar apa yg ea cakap.. mau saya latuk kepala dia ohhh!

beramaii lahh begambar mana asii sorang2. hahaha! ituu saya pigang kotak pallmall untuk urg yg hisap rokok :P *peace*!

kami lepak d playground seria with teman lama disanaa.. apa yg kamu liat ituu tidak nyata ;p

Posing mu ahhh macam urg kesakitan pinggang :D

2009-05-02T00:46:00.000-07:00

PEACE babe!!! huhu~ hanya saya saja tidak ikut bgambar kerana saya yg ambil ini gambar.. nyeahhh!!

hantuu bertopingkan manusia. haha! apakann.. nyeahhh...dakat g dangan bulan tuuu kann..

ini olanggg takut atau suka sihh??

ini gambar semasa kami chill2 diluar rumah sambil bgurau senda lahhh.. haha!

2009-04-30T20:35:00.000-07:00

sakit jua ati ku nee.. liat gambar nya sama ex gf nya ah. semua tah nyakit kan nah! babii banar ehh.. :'( i'm fuckin' hurt waaaaaaa!! don't u know thattt??? nda sorang sorang g. ntah pai bila kah aku mianee.. mcm urg nda bperasaan langsung! sabar saja kann..aku andang kana buat slumber. no one will love me like she did. apa lahhh.. she just a sweetalker that did a promise breaker! hoho! i miss her alot, you know?i do love you but the only reason i can't choose who will be with me that make me happy. i can't forget you and her. huhu~ atu tahh yg ku sasak nahhh.. nda ku tau g cana kan prove to this girl!! yg buat kan ku tmimpi2 jua. mental2 tiap hari.. sadang2 jua kan buatku mianee.. aku tau wa kau ego.. mustahil 1 day, dgn m nda kan nyakit kan ati mu. u will back to me! just find me wenever u feel need me. i miss you

2009-04-30T20:01:00.000-07:00

i can't stand it anymore. u really want me to hate you. why shud i? making this don't make me happy dear. huhhh.. down berabis ku cani ne.. pabek tah kau buang dah aku punta adiah yg ku penah bagi kau tuuu. atleast kau masih ingat bahh. aku HARGAI lahh kau buat canii. aku tau kau buat cani sal kau kan lupakan aku. don't be too proud dear. i know the one whos with u right now nda kan batah wth kau. but i pray fer ur happiness :) yes,ur happiness dear.. please do me a favor. don't try to judge every words that i wrote in ur notes. hope u understand why... i really miss to hold you. eventhough kau taken,i'll try to stay away from ur life. stop being ego dear. cos ego will make you regret in ur life time. know that i cant stop loving you. Damn! aku down berabiss.. like i wanna cry.. aku rindu masa lalu.. huhu~ nda ku dapat tahan g cana. menyasal nda btampat nee aku ahhh. pa bleh buat. its too late to regret. she was happy with her new partner life. hope you happy ever after with her!!!!! huhu~ can someone makes me happy?forgetting her is the most hurt me. hope you know deep inside i'm dying. hope god defunc you,so that there's no one will own you,and you are mine forever. :') hate my fake smile!its really tired fer me to cover wat was happened just like nothing! i love you more than you know dear. hope you know that.

2009-04-29T00:24:00.000-07:00

ohhh i'm back to my blogger! nyeahh! si bidah malar btanya kan sal blog ku agg. ea nada jua ada txt aku pat tag ahhh.. batah ku menunggu anak atuu banaiii. cii notyy aahh payah saya kan cek itu email. sal nya kau nada invite saya dear,, heheh! banyak banar nya ceta ku ane nyantaaaa..

Mall,

jalans with her liat wayang and jalans2. hahah! apakan balik2. nyeahh~ nda bahh anu nda kan tym atuu aku liat ceta 'coming soon' geyylaaa berijap ceta nya atuu pai aku tepluk eaaa nda g dapat btriak anee bahh. labih jua udah tuu aku ahh.. hahaa! ada g this girl liat2 saya. nyeahh.. jeles sidiaa.. mana nda aku melintas tkidum2 yaa.. senyum2 yaa apaa.. then udah ku masuk arcade senyum2 tah ya g. mcm who is sheee?? idk her bahh.. then kuar dari arcade kana tantang ole this girl. wht wrng wth me??daaa~ bis ku kana marahh.. nda jua ku kn menggatal x:D heheh. p f minat aku melayan saja nda plg labih :D huhu~

ada g tym ku turun schlator,aku kan turun this girl kan naik.. nda tersengaja kami atuu angan2 bahhh.. hahah! kana cubit jua ku:( payahh neee! hahaha~ nda dapatt liar mata ahhh..nyeahh~ oh lupa g apa kan ku blogging banar nyaa.. tunggu tah ku rajin k :)

moody

2009-04-17T22:58:00.000-07:00

after geo lesson,we don't have any class. and we lepak-ing difoyer. duduk2,cek fs and ceta2.when i opened "new comments" she leave text. "Qaydee jua lah.bah bye" and her post bulletin. "hurting you makes me happy? inside of it 'aku buat catu sal...' " malas ku kn describe,sakit saja atii ehh. awuuu her new gf encem,macho,cute and really tomdude! but sorry yeahh, i'm not that perfect!

and hell yeah!!hurting me makes you happy. i've tried to hate you dear but still i can't. from now, i want to leave all memories.i just afraid of regreting all of this dear! you are so sweet ever couple that i ever had before.i can't bare lossing you.. and i know ur love has died. so let me just cut it off just to try stay away from you. leaving always driving me so crazyy! bye memories!!

Library

2009-04-17T18:17:00.000-07:00

hoho!kami dlibrary grouping sorang2 ali2.haha! sis yuna,jul,drg adeq semua jauh2 dari kami :( why oh? hehe!! nina,amal and nurul bwt hw maths and english. sambil2 atuu kami becerita jua lah. aku? ne mndgr ceta drg sambil menaip blogging!! hoho! know what? i'm using nina's lappy.and lappy ne f menaip mesti takan "fn" sambil menaip. mana nda cali sulku menaip.mcm cacat waa. haha!sangal jua jari menaip sambil mengatik aneee..

kami becerita pasal lumut lunting yg pasal kekalah ayam brunei bagas besabung ahh. my cousin cakap f pulau lumut lunting tnggalam,Brunei dapat petanda buruk. but don't know banar or nda. pasal nya kan dahulu kala kisah nya brunei kalah besabung and tegadai negeri sendiri. yatah petanda nya kana liat dari sana. hehe! jangan jua telampau pecaya lahh. HOHO!apa g ah? hehe! ane ku dgr drg beceta sal kg.ayerr~ haha! apaaan topic kami ahh? sal penambang ahh. kata drg penambang mesti ada lesen jua. f ada "waterblock" bapa nya kana msg awal2.ketawa2 jua ku nee menaip ahh. ndakan kawan ku cnina ane nda tau papa. then ea btanya pasal kg.ayer. either kg ayer ane ada kadai or nda. then sinurul gtau ada eyy and ada restaurant aaahh..x cnina cakap,"kawin tani ma3 sa0a 4rg kampung ayer!*iski sul nya*" hahahahah! sinurul cakap,"poklenn tuuu" btanya tah g cninaa aneee," poklen anee apakan? bukan mcm bjalan kah?" hahah! kesian kawan ku anee.. muka saja lawa p nda tau papa sal kg.ayer.

sad story sinurul ceta kan sal ea penah tgl dkg.ayer.. and rumahnya dulu tebakar dalam taun 2002 yg kebakaran besar ahh. sayang ahh umah nya baruu jua beusai sudah taya angus. katanya ada urg becetaaa yg ada urg halus menunu umahh nyaa.. bukan sebuah saja p bnyk lahhh.. ada jua urg beceta yg kg.ayer atuu angus sal bunga api. p nda jua logik tuuu.. jauh jua tuuu bunga api atuu. nda teplanting pat kg.ayer x nyaaa. ada2 saja ceta drg anee.. sedih nya sinurul ahh.. sal ceta nya umahh angus ahh.. hmph! stop here! krg g sambunggg... hahah! ehhh.. ada si amal suruh masuk kan dalm blogg yg si enn tepaksa pinjam spendet urg sal nya time atuu nada g beusinnn.. semua abis angus.. kesian ehhhh.. but sabar saja. ehhh aku kan kekantinnn.. :D

kenangan terindahhhh

2009-04-17T05:31:00.000-07:00

Tali aneee.. pipahh yg balikan fer kamii. time atuu ea kan naik hajah. so yeahh ea gathering. and i'm still with her that time! nameng,aku,ea,butul and lupa ku sapa g. banyak lah time atuu.. semua dbalikan nya untuk kenangan..=') she knew that i love black too deeper! so yeahh.. nadahada wana itam ea pilih kan wana dark blue and shes white. PERFERCT match ryt? i miss her alot. but yeahh this is wat i deserve. sabar saja tahh =')

and this picture too!!

you see that picture? time atuu kami bgambar dapan bouncer.time dskulah kami ada funfair and jubli perak:') ohh tidak! atuu ea sendiri yg cuci kai her pc and she stick in that box. hows sweet she doing that. really..

and this i grab cos it remind me wen we are in 2007 with a big fought. =) surely now nda g. ea mujuk aku. hehe. balik dari KK ea balikan aku a very cute dolphin!!in this box she gave to me wen i was birthday on that time!i think i was in 16 years old=) she made a suprised cake for me. damn!=') she so sweet.in the box she left it near my mirror. so that i'll realized it. huhu~ batah jua ea buat kan aku realize apa yg ada dakat ceramin tu. truely bangang ku napa ya suh duduk2 dakat ceramin. batah g tuu.. lastly,maybe ea kbatahan dah nunggu then ea gtau sendiri. fuhh!! tkajut ku atu. all inside are really mean to me. even tah gula2 nya atuu nda seberapa p ada maksud tersendiri waa.. and dalam atuu ea bagi card yg ea bwt sendiri =') * i crying ryt now*

it is was a memories when i'm with her before she leave me. so sweet ryt?that why its hard to forget bout her =')..

nifm

2009-04-17T03:02:00.000-07:00

hehhh.. i fight with her! so lame! banar tah! skadar aku lambat mreply msg pun jadi kae ane bah. udah jua dxplain knapa? anee mau g nda mau kana tagur. mana nda ku bwt pat nick "nifm!" apa nah? ea atuu nyamal x bahh. udah jua ku pujuk ne. aku minta maaf apa.. p masih jua kan mau kae :'( tau lah ku ex nya nda penah marah pat nya apaa.. p aku ne nda jua kan dsama kan nya dgn ex nya x? :( huhu~ so sad hehh.. well,i just need to change with a new life wa! can someone help me get out from this fuckin' feeling? it hurts me btw.. u don't know how to appriciate me ayt? u accept someone like me just because of ur past. u know wat?loving you is a stupid feeling fer me. why shud a people like you actually? phatetic me.wat makes u stick with me?damn! i miss her! but apa blehh buat? she don't want me to disturb her in this time. Hate eyhhh!!and i know lah yg she's still contact her ex(jablay). but doesn't mean she have to treat me like ????? aku waa mcm seksa rasa nya. sorang2 sakit kan ati ku p that girl(siique) nda lah penah sakit kan ati ku. aku sayang ea actually. but yeahh.. don't know why eyhh..hmphh!! lau rasa nya aku ne kana gunai untuk JUST FOR FUN,i warn u just leave me laahh. mun nya skadar aku ane lambat mreply msg nya? fuhhh!! jauh masij\h kan mencari kesalahan miatuu aaa.. now? ea baru msg. jgn layan ea selamanya supaya urg pikir aku single? heyyyy!!!!!! if kan cari alasan kan goback ma ex bgtau saja! nda payah bebunga2..ntah nda saya tau lagi! otak saya buntu and saya sangat lemah untuk memikir kan nya! damn! ane kan blajar g. mengasak utakk ahhh!!!

waitingg!

2009-04-17T01:10:00.000-07:00

hoho! on9 msn tah ganya. haha! now? webcam wth ciinoty my dorlings! wait fer sii QaydeeME kan dapat link me.. ohh susah banget meh? ane bahh. ciinoty majal webcam ahh. daritadi nda mau. ahahahs.sabarr ahh~ nahh ane mau udahh ahh.. yeahhh!!! waahhh.. malu2 tambi kami aahh.. mcm apa? agagagaag!ea suruh saya panggil adikuu sii eyrahh and now aku sambung g balik btext sama eaa.. kdgran suara drg bckap ahh. mua nya tstuck ahh..

********//*******// stop here fer now ********//*******//********

morning

2009-04-16T19:38:00.000-07:00

hoho! babah saya marah sal nda buat kaja ddapur. nda kan aku gnya x mmbuat kaja ddapur? adiku nda x nyaaa? sadang2.. hmph! moodless for today! ohh! my new skin. im kinda don't like it but wat to do. nanti lagi aku cari yg lainn.. sanang jua dliat. nalehh ku waaa mmcari aneee.. nda g mood tuu. sasak saya! pagi2 kana cakapi. "DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE SAYS WAAA" sapa jua ingin kana ckapi. baik udah ku awal bangun nee.. ehh.. stress ku eyyhh.. alum g ku bagi record book ku nee. MATI! MATI!

dmalam awal ku tdur atuu. dalam pkul 9 lalu atuu lahh. macam staie ne akuu ahh pasang ceta antuu " tali pocong perawan ". haha. adiku tidur udahh. tarus ku tutup ehh.. ngam2 g part yg berijap tym atuu. banar nya berani p sadangg lahh. alum plg ku mandi nee. ane kan mandi tah ku nee. bis tuu buat kaja mendgni babu saya. nda bah,masalah nya ahh.. aku nda tau apa kan dtulung waa. ea macam siuk sendiri bkaja. erk! malu ku banar nyaa.. alum g krg lau ku xam ne.. fail atuu g alum bebuka. EH! bebuka plg p tym dskulah saja. nalihh udah ku study! study! study!. mcm giveup ku udah. ndaku tau napa aku mcm nda bsemangat kan blajar g. maybe sal aku failed last year atuu x. nda g ku kn semangat lagii.. Stop here! ;) krg g. f ada free time! huhu~

in april

2009-04-16T01:05:00.000-07:00

Today:) i woke up at 530a.m after that i went shower and all.. i doing all my stuff! huhu~ i have my chocolate panda and having my breakfast with dad and bro pututs. gagagga!arrived at school mcm beasa pagi2 aku suka ngatil kawan sendiri. kadang2 urg diam pun jadi bising oleh ku bawa becerita.. haha! pity on me today,moodless hantap! but still making a joke for my friends. saya tau mereka sunyi.. ceahhhh~

Apa g.. ? ohh kami blajar geo and i DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THE TEACHER SAYING! pronouns nya ali2 baaahhh.. awuut bagi saya. f aku fail in june ani jgn salah kan akuuu ahh.. ahahs. english oral nda g batah. aku prepair luu for my june!!!! damn! mengasak utak ku dulu.. blajar brabis p masih on lappy~ hahaha~ ytah nadahada tuuu nahhh~ and tym english lesson tadi teacher kami busy,so yeah kami buat kaja sendiri. yatah kan aku baca buku ' bomoh and spells' hahaha.. ada jua yg logic sal creta atuu but atuu kisah banar plgg.. english nya mendalam ne yoo.. pai lidah ku pun bekuluk menyabut. but i still love to read that kind of book! awesome words! huhu~ yatah nda ku mmbuang masa sambil2 atuu aku buat dalam krtas " heart alai " sorry laahhh aku nda dapat upload gmbar sal mmc ku ilang ahh.. but nantii tah ku liat kan ahhh. heheh.. aku kan update my blog. p ku nda tau cana.. hoho!

Balik ku dari skulah,aku bmsg wth my huneyy~ and yeahhh~ my msg lambat sampai pat nya. b4 balik kumah,kami antar abg ku kpusat kesenian.. ea belajar disana~ dulu jadi penganggur.. alhamdulillah now nda g.. ahahs..ceahhhh~ aku tsliur kan mamam kabab bahhh.. singgah tah jua kami mmbali kabab kajap.. huhu~ yth kann otw ku balik atuu sii huney ku anee malar tmc2.. ku pikir tah apa aaa.. low crdt kah apakah.. baru saja ku sampai drumah tarus ea tpun.. *aits? macam tau sajaaa* p apa? aku kana triaki oleh nyaa..

huneyME ; " B! mana b kan?? nda g pandai mreply msg tuu??"
ME ; "apakan? udah jua breply.. hmph *blurr* "

ea suruh aku baca kan msg atuu.. then aku baca kan.. and hell yeahh jadi kae kajap.. hmphh. aftr tutup tpun tarus ku msg.. " nda payah dtriaki x.sorry aku bwt hun mrh.aku bru sampai umah.really exhausted.just jaga diri. " nahhh.. kes nyamal jua udahh saya tuuu.. nda g ku pkai ' b ' bahhh...mun udah menyamal atuuu mau taya jua minta pujuk tuu.. hahahs.. bida sayaaa ituuu =D nyeahhh~ and and, ea msg aku that ea minta maaf coz lambat msg tuu sampai pat nyaaa.. yth kann.. len x jgn lu marah2 nda tantu pasal.. luan jua ingau nya atuu. nda jua ku kan bgatal bhapa x.. HAHA! p nda apa aku suka. ea menampak kan yg ea sayang kan akuu.. ahahs..

after ituu. aku on9 emel Siihby. and guess what?? ea on9 and suka sangat nyakitkan atii saya. i said,"can u just stop it? i know that u ego. and that not the way u throw ur feeling! its just like nothing!" and ea replied,"tau pun kauu.." awuu lahhh aku anii cana? hmphh.. just sabar saja lah ea banyak nyakit kan ati ku today yesterday and past past.. aku pun banyak jua salah patnya,and aku benar2 hate wen i miss her.. bnci bnr waaa ada rasa catuuu.. p ndalah da g.. nda ku tau masaneee aku bebanar kan ubah prasaan ku. gnya f ku ubah prasaan ku.. si alai cana?? ea ubah nda prasaan nya? mustahil jua ea dapat lupakan ex cinta nya yg sampai setaun dgn nya couple ahhh~ aku tau lah feeling sayang atuu ada masihh.. p nda jua nda dapat diubah kan? aku tau kami sama2 ego and nahan rasa. p mun c alai anee bebnar dah seksa nahan rasa. aku lapas kan saja ea cematuu saja. even my heart can't stop loving you but i have to let you you on that time. there's nothing that i can do..u are my fist love dear. and i hope that we are for the last to be together back. cos the chances is always come but their scars still can't hide it. how hurts me the most lossing you again. i shoudn't wish for a long time to be with. but my love are so strong wanted u to be mine forever.

2009-04-15T00:11:00.000-07:00

i'm new blogging today.i have blog before. but yeahh this is the new one. i willl try to active in this blog. huhu~ what a very lucky day with a bad dreamt that i have been. just now,i calling her and asking ' wat r u doin?' and she told me that she's in something she called'limin room' but i don't get it. ahahs. starting with a new blog. i will learn more how to use it. and hell yeah i write all bout wat i do everyday. so don't get boring with my story yeah. alai still don't know what i'm doing right now. she just want me to be loyal and don't want me to play around with other girl. oh damn! ifmy dear~ but why? why should i told you that i miss you dear? u just love to hurt me and like to see my teardrops. like i told you dear, "if you happy doing this to me, hurting me makes you happy. yeahh,keep it up dear" :) i will accept it!

someone loves to read wen i'm blogging.my other email's. yeahh.. its been for a long time i'm not writing there. i make a new one cos my life now change,not like wat i have bfore.sorry if u don't understand wat i mean. i love someone that i can't prove my real love to her. she just need me to prove but still i can't i don't know why i stuck on this two girls! they makes me so crazi. i mean them everything to me. their love i need it so indeed! but i still can't.In this blog, i think i can't explain how sad and dissapointing my feeling too deeper when she told me that she "fedup with people like ME" but why now dear? why? u hate me and i know u can't forget about me. why not u try to get me back?